& then were back at it again…
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..some things you just cant find the words to describe..and eventually after a repetative faze; you just give up on trying to find the words to describe your inner most unexplainable emotions..
At what point do you just say “I GIVE UP”..!?
Its never in me to ever easily give up.. But when you just feel like you cant go any further; why not just give into your temptation of throwing in the towel and just give up.. Especially when youve given your all.. Put into it all that youve had and could come up with.. In every aspect.. Mentally, spiritually, physically, emotionally, financially.. Etc.. You put in and put in.. But yet you always get the crapy end of the stick.. Dont get me wrong, you get alittle back.. But only a little compared to everything youve given.. You get mistreated, misunderstood, ignored, pushed aside, lied to, hurt, used, and so much more.. No matter how faithful you are, no matter how honest you are, no matter how hard you work, how much you provide, how much youve accepted what others wouldnt accept and overlooked.. Its sad! Because, in the end.. ALL YOUVE EVER SAID over and over..”THERES NOTHING YOU CAN GIVE ME THAT I CANT GIVE MYSELF BUT ONE THING!! LOVE..” But the one thing youve ever wanted; you get denied.. Then? Do you give up!? Do you have the right to say “IM DONE”..?? Or do you just keep going in the same circles doing the same thing with the same expectations but get the same WRONG results!? its been said, thats the definition of INSANITY! lord, help me.. Cause im at the verge of GIVING UP
Oh, I see the truth in your lies
I see nobody by your side
but I’m with you when you re all alone
And you correct me when Im lookin wrong
I see that guilt beneath the shame
I see your soul through your window pain
I see the scars that remain
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| — | Lil Wayne (man in the mirror) |
Egyptian soldiers beat a female protester in Cairo.
U see the dude with his foot over her like hes gonna stomp on her!? Smh.
..a “NEW” year..ending the old w.a new husband & son!..
2011 was a tough year! But I started it off pretty good.. Ended it, GREAT! Ended it becoming a wife and mother.. Two things im so blessed to have the privilege of being.. Something my hearts been yearning for.. A God fearing, God serving, loving, handsome, strong, smart, street savy husband.. And I got him!! & booooooy, did I hit the JACK POT! Hes everything I could ever ask for.. He loves me, soothes me, puts me in check ahem (just between you and me thou..as long as he dont know he has that much control over me, well be fine lol)..hes everything ive EVER wanted in a MAN! & im truly blessed.. But my husband gave me a SON! See, I wasnt suppose to be able to bare children.. But thats when my body told me “GREATER IS HE THAT IS IN ME”.. (biblical scripture that alot live by).. My sons name is Gennesaret..So handsome, and looks like his mama.. Hahaha.. I cant imagine life without my new boys.. 2011 was a year of learning and finding myself.. So im going into 2012 wiser than I left the year before and TWICE as blessed.. I thank God everyday for my new family.. I only ask that he uses all three of us to Glorify his name and return the love.. To be walking and living testimonies that God blesses those who WAIT for him earnestly and faithfully.. God BLESS! Happy NEW YEARS!
